#16 A blissful day (:

In life, you can get wounded, hurt and “burned” by an outside force, like a family member or a friend. If you don’t deal with that hurt, bitterness and resentment can spring forth from that emotional injury. Eventually, it will spread throughout your heart.

#15 With Him, I’m contented. (:

It has been such a long time since I last updated my blog. Haha. Due to my laziness and I feel that I’ve nothing interesting to blog about. Every day is a good day for me. Haha. 2010, It is time for me to learn to grow up and be more mature. It’s going to be a good good year (:

#14 Christmas – A season of LOVES.

Love teaches us to see the best in those we love and to say nothing of those things that are evil. Love suffers long and is kind; love thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things (1 Cor. 13:4-7).

I’m just back from Andrew & Grace Girl’s home and I started to miss the girls already.  Before I was on my way there, I was seriously quite apprehensive about this whole visitation to Girl’s home thingy. Maybe I would meet the people from my past which I would rather choose to forget and act as if we are stranger when we coincidentally meet on the street someday. Would I be able to make friends with the people over in there?

Upon reaching the place and after much mingling with them, they have broken the misconception all along I have for Girl’s home. They have big dreams but are just lost along the way. I see potential in them. It takes 2 hands to clap. Sometimes, in life, people like them got to step out and up to seize the chance which requires a great load of effort and courage. However, we people, must also give them a chance to do it as well. Maybe, we should really stop stereotyping but rather, see the potential in them. Not being critical but let them have a chance to shine as well. (:

I feel for them.
All I want for Christmas? To celebrate the Christmas with them. ((:

#13 Cherry Bloom

We may be insignificant in the eyes of other people or even in our own eyes, but it is the heart that God is interested in. God can raise up someone who is considered a “nobody” in the eyes of people and make a great prophet out of him.

Been real busy or rather lazy recently due to exam week and etc. Been really regretful of what I’ve done and said in the past. Hope this coming year, I would be a better person. (:

#12 Let me be utterly stupid for just a moment.

Pardon me for i’m going to grumble. Let me says a silly remark. ” I want to give up ” That’s all. Thanks.

I am bad in everything and anything. I am a failure. The lousiest.  The lousiest person that people can trample over. The lousiest person that people can lose their respect for. The lousiest person that no one will look up to. I can smile and laugh with you. I can forgive people times. I can joke with you. However, it does not mean that you can take an advantage of me when i did not make any comment about it.

I have my own thoughts and feelings.

Think, if you have ever taken me for granted.

I can’t let go of all my thoughts and emotions when i thought of the consequences that follow suits.

I hope I can be like you as well…

#11 I’m Not Afraid.

Just reached home like around 12 plus after a long day in school, rushing down to give tuition while having fellowship + life updates with my subzone children church leaders @ esplanade Thai Express then moving on to Starbucks!

Testimonies, dreams and resolutions were being shared among us and it really inspired me to keep on keeping on while getting better and better.

I’ve decided. I want to do better.

After listening to what they have said, the story and the moral behind the story of “The hare and the tortoise” came into my mind. Ain’t i that hare? It somehow resembled me.

Ain’t i the one who thought that I have already move the fastest ahead of others in term of my spiritual life? Haven my status proved it all? Shouldn’t i be pacing now and not speeding all the way?  – That was the thoughts then.

Now i fully comprehend the reason that i am still being stuck here instead of raising up. Because of my pride and complacent i possessed. Now to think back, i am ashamed of myself. I  need to repent and spent time in the Words of God again. The words, is God.

Humble is the key. I am willing to humble myself to the very bottom. I need to change for the better and to speed all the way now. I should not be complacent anymore. It’s time to change for the better. I want to glorify Him, not defame Him. I really need to change, be it for me or rather, for Him.

For Him, I will do it.

Children church ministry and cell group ministry. Though i’ll be juggling with all these. I am willing. I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me. Amen.

Areas i need to change :

School

• Don’t be late for school
• Give my best when i am in school
• Be active in discussion
• Diligent in doing worksheet and presentation
• Don’t slack
• Don’t pon without any valid reason

Children Church Ministry

• Go for all visitations
• Pick up more skills from Regina
• More observant
• Go for all busing
• If can, do bus back too
• Don’t be lazy for saturation
• Be more thick-skinned

Cell group

• Be more serious to earn respect. Have fun when it is needed.
• Raise up to another new level
• Be more observant
• Do what i am needed to do

Own targets

• More discipline in my quiet time
• More determined in doing things
• Catch and understand things faster
• Pray, fast, praise and worship more
• Be more and more Jesus-like
• Build better character and personalities.
• Prayer warrior!
• More anointed
• Swear to my own hurts, no empty promise
• be a servant for all
• doing things for others even though may inconvenient myself
• greater capacity for everything
• greater understanding
• abide to all the ten commandments
• holding on close and tight to the words of God
• Breakthrough in many areas of my life

#10 Stop Right There.

Currently listening to Lady Gaga – Bad Romance.

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah! Roma-roma-mamaa! Ga-ga-ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance~

HAHA. Attended yesterday MuseII with yangy. The dance were nice. I’m not in there. The costume, nice. The makeup, glamourous. Each of them has a stalk of flower in their hand.  Nice visual experience. I’m not in there. HAHA.

However, i felt so happy i can bless other. Bible says if you refresh other, other will refresh you back, the more generous you are, the more you shall be blessed. Glad that i have the chance to bless others. (:

I think i should focus. (:

 

True fulfillment comes when we acknowledge that God has arranged the circumstances in our lives, and we are grateful for everything that He has given us to do.

#09 Kidnapped by flu bug.

When the disappointments are enormous, when the blows are relentless, when all expectations are dashed, that is when we need to say, “I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation!”

#08 Captured.

People tends to tell me, ” Chocolate will make you happy. ” Somehow, i started to beg a different. I took 4 subway cookies today and each contain the ingredient chocolate. Maybe i have overdose on chocolate and now having side effects.

I feel hollow.

Reason? M-O-N-E-Y. Initially i was just browsing through blogshops then it suddenly struck  me. The hard-earned money was never enough for me to spend. I did not manage to reward myself the pair of shoes i’ve been eyeing for. Even when i want to buy clothes or anything, i got to think through thoroughly.

Simply pathetic.

Kind of envy my friends. Their allowance are way more than mine. Their life, more luxurious than mine. They can just buy the clothes or things they want without much hesitant. What about me?

How i wish i’m rich.

Yes. Money isn’t everything. But no one can deny that money is an essential need in this materialistic and practical world that we all live in.

How long has it been since i last bought a new shirt or dress? Or even shoes or accessories?

I want money to work for me. I don’t wish to be the one slogging in and out, becoming a slave for money. I wish to be rich.

I want money, would you give it to me? HAHA ._.

#7 Just gonna believe that it is going to be a good week

Ahhh. Don’t even bother asking me why i am updating my blog at such a time when i’m suppose to be sleeping. Yes. You’re right. Goodnight. HAHAHAHA.

I can feel it. (: